Deceived

Why am I always being deceived by my own thought?
Why things that I have done always hurt others?
Why am I not love myself?

Why not I search for partner in life?
Why do i feel so scared to be in relation?
Why is it so hard to find my strength to love again?

Why can't I break this curse?
Why am I still living in the world of lie?
Why am I still hiding?

Why are there so many thought in my mind?

vindicated... suffocated....

why there are so many "why"?

is the answer out there....
where is the love when I need one....
or it had been in me all along....
I just don't....or won't see it.....
Am I deceiving myself???

Being deceived my own self.....

if i could just look into the mirror and sang this to myself......

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Maybe I hang around here
A little more than I should
We both know I got somewhere else to go
But I got something to tell you
That I never thought I would
But I believe you really ought to know

I love you
I honestly love you

You don't have to answer
I see it in your eyes
Maybe it was better left unsaid
This is pure and simple
And you should realize
That it's coming from my heart and not my head

I love you
I honestly love you

I'm not trying to make you feel uncomfortable
I'm not trying to make you anything at all
But this feeling doesn't come along everyday
And you shouldn't blow the chance
When you've got the chance to say

I love you
I honestly love you

If we both were born
In anoother place and time
This moment might be ending in a kiss
But there you are with yours
And here I am with mine
So I guess we'll just be leaving it at this

I love you
I honestly love you
I honestly love you"