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Slip Out Of My Life...

I don't know since when I changed to such a cold-hearted guy.
I have to warm this frozen icy lonely heart to thaw.
I like being wrapped with warmmness more than anything else for sure.
I'm gonna make my coming days to be filled with laughter and joy.

I let myself down that I'm more cruel than I thought I would be.
I'm just a loser who ends up by caring for my soul.
I don't give my heart to no one cause I don't wanna waste my time.
I tried to love this loneliness to slip out of this lonesome hole.

Sorrow is what I hate but it's grown my sensations.
Regrets taught me how to make any hard decisions.
Peace is always by my side but I've never felt it once.
Love is not the word only for the sweet romance.


Well I'm scared, scared, scared, scared, to death.
And I'm scared to keep on going on my way.
Well I'm scared, scared, scared, scared, to death.
And I'll tell myself I'm special till the end.

Recalling my torn broken, aching heart of these long days.
And all the memories I wanted to forget for making leaps.
Recalling, breaking, aching, crying, making sure to me.
And I take all and grin at my future on the way.


I don't give my heart to no one cause I don't wanna waste my time.
I tried to love this loneliness to slip out of this lonesome hole.

adapted from BECK : Mongolian Chop Squad

Valentine Day, My Silent Night

I can hear the clock ticking on the walls,

My washing machine spinning at the back,

My fan blowing wind of dusk,

My eye are keep on the monitor,

As my hand are typing words,

which I can't barely understand the meaning of VALENTINE...

As I joke around with this word the whole day...

now the joke are playing back on me...

laughing at my lonesome soul...

carving for my drink of "milo"...

hunger for the cup of "maggie mee"...

on my leg a pair of imported wear...

they called it "selipar jipon"...

with my "kain" sarong tight on my hip...

what a VALENTINE day....

zetsubou wa amai wana tozasareta sono tobira kokora ga senjou dakara dare nimo oshienai

Despair is an alluring trap, a door that shuts you in. My heart is a battlefield, so I can't tell anyone.

zenmai no shinzou ga unmei ni ayatsurare buriki no heitaitachi wa satsuriku wo hajimeru

Their clockwork hearts are manipulated by destiny, The tin-plate soldiers begin their massacre.

inochi sae mo moteasobu noka kowarekaketa otogi no kuni de mune no oku ni hashiru itami wo douka zutto wasurenu mama de

Are lives playthings too, in this crumbling fairy tale kingdom? Please, don't ever forget the pain that runs deep in your heart.

yokubou wa doku ringo te ni ireta mono wa nani? mirai no kodomotachi eto nokoseru mono wa nani?

Desire is a poisoned apple. What is it that you have obtained? What are we going to pass on to the children of tomorrow?

ai wo shirazu yureru yurikago moetsukiteku nemuri no mori de tomo ni ikiru yorokobi sae mo kieteshimau tooku

The rocking cradle that knows not love, in this sleeping forest as it burns to the ground, You are so distant that even the joy of being alive with you is disappearing.

yasashisa wo shinji subete wo yurushite itsukushimu you ni tada wakachiatte wakariatte

Believe in kindness and forgive everything. Share with others, understand each other, so that we may learn to love.

inochi sae mo moteasobu noka kowarekaketa otogi no kuni de mune no oku ni hashiru itami wo douka zutto wasurenu mama de

Are lives playthings too, in this crumbling fairy tale kingdom? Please, don't ever forget the pain that runs deep in your heart.

ai wo shirazu yureru yurikago naze bokura wa umareta no darou haruka kanata inori no you na komoriuta ga hibiku

The rocking cradle that knows not love, why were we born into this world? In faraway lands, the prayer-like lullaby resounds.

yasashisa wo shinji subete wo yurushite itsukushimu you ni tada wakachiatte wakariatte

Believe in kindness and forgive everything. Share with others, understand each other, so that we may learn to love. Wana 罠 (Trap) by THE BACK HORN from Gundam 00 (1st ED)

Insecurity

Lately been having strange dream, about the future. The state of my mind at that time is as clear as a crystal. Still, my ego in me keep shutting me down from believing it, for chasing after it, and go for it. The uncertainties keep hunting me. Clouded and faded my conscious mind from processing it. Reminds me of the training I have gone true about realizing my dreams. As the coached me "Dream will only be dream if I do nothing about it".

It still in my head, the sound of cheering and voices of those who will be at my back if ever I would fall. Even thou I realize all of this, fear and self righteousness overwhelming my though. Day after day I told myself of the different I could made, utter it day by day "I'm a free, responsible and a caring man!". The state of my mind is no longer the same that it was last time. The conscious are beating me day by day yelling at me say "what is you purpose of living anyway?". "I you wan to start some thing you better do it now!".

Choice?! What about it anyway that make my life as it is? The life that I'm living in now is the result of the choice that I have made in the past. The choice that I will be making now will make tomorrow a different. Will I made "that" choice? The choice that will bring a difference to the world I'm living in?

People say "go out and make that choice!", my coward heart care so much, so much that I melted my own stone cold tough heart and stay put in my cave with all the "safety tools". As I remember, that is how I was brought up. Play with the "safe stuff". Safe...

It's a complicated simplicity situation, but the fix mind of my and the chronology of my life turn the "safe" into a back door, way out, avoidance, exit and escape from my responsibilities. Such a coward I am. Step up! It's now or never. It's never too late, but why not now! Do it do it Now!!!!