Let it Go...

The feeling inside is really hard to subside,

it always troubles me and disturb my mind,

the emotions fail me each and every time,

saying "I'm not thinking of you" is a lie...

Time pass, we grow,

your path, mine flow,

Like a piece of broken arrow,

moving in hollow....

The memories still lies within,

I can't delete it like in the screen,

troublesome it may be,

love you still, I must admit...

lesson learnt, I CHOOSE not to forget you,

As painful as it may be, you are still part of my life,

Let it go??

not the feelings....

Let you go??

yes, you have every right to pursuit your happiness...

p/s

(>_^) beside a buaya can survive any terrain.....

My Journey end of July 2009

How to start this. This week it is really an exciting week for me. Lots of challenges, lots of obstacles. Patient is what my late grandfather used to say. But... being me, patient is not some thing I can't really work so well with. I'm impatient, reckless, and sometime could be very forgetful. As I'm doing my best to be as patient and un-reckless as possible, there will alway be a devil in me.

Saturday, it was a great memory for me because for 15 years, finally I meet up some of my long lost friends, crush (it's a secret) and we had a good time together. It seems that every one now has their own commitments and life to carries on, which remind me, what's mine? Being stuck with too many works lately, I kind of lost the sense of time and excitement that I used to have, jamming every night, hanging out with friend in the mamak's stall every evening, movie every wednesday night and most of all enough time to rest. I'm so out of it right now.

Sunday, went to the office for a while (As usual me a workaholic). Later on in the afternoon, I went out with a colleague mine for a movie. We had a great start, I mean we went for a walk around the Curve strolling later when it's time for movie I was like OMG! I lost the movie ticket. I'm so panic at that time I dunno what to think and ask my friend to wait at the cinema and I go back to the place we went to retrieve the ticket. But she insisted. Oh well. she follow me to the cafe we had our lunch. The tickets was lost. Later what I did, we went to the ticket counter again and explain about tickets and this was my first time ever went into the cinema ticket-less. (^0^)... creepy... but it happend because of mine recklessness. Man I hate being me at that time...

Today marked a bad day in my calendar. As I wake up this morning, I was very excited to go to work. So a brush of teeth, a cold icy bath, nothing can stop me from going to work. As I walk into the valley of living machines, I was shock when I notice one of my favorite animal had gone missing form my armored horse. I lost my self at the moment,it was my favorite one. My precious... It's GONE!!! Some one took it! It was kidnapped. I'm furious as my vehicle scream through the road. Enter my office with a pain in my heart and soul. I shall never forgive those who had done such unacceptable deed to me. My naked devil...please return my lil' Devil to me... My day gone by with sadness, sorrow, and mentally unstabled me,are trouble by the kidnap of my lil'devil.

it's all gone... gone... sob sob....sober........

I'll be fine....

I'm trying to be good. to live the way I should
to concentrate on my works, to make my time occupied with whatever things...

as much as I could...
Yet, when the sun goes down...

when the street lights are on...

somehow he just happened to appear in my mind...

I'm getting okay...but on and off...
I was good for about 2 weeks...
and recently I was drown into that stupid thoughts again...
and now I'm okay again...

Life goes on...
I always remind myself of this...

I don't want to expect anything from anyone...
gotto learn to stand alone, to be more independent...
I learn to know that no matter who, we shouldnt rely on anyone...
cos when that particular person were to leave, you'll left nothing...

I'll be fine...

(Adapted from: .....him.....)

You in ruins

Do you know what's worth fighting for
When it's not worth dying for?
Does it take you breath away
And you feel yourself suffocating?

Does the pain weight out the pride?
And you look for a place to hide?
Does someone break your heart inside?
You're in ruins

When you're at the end of the road
And you lost all sense of control
And your thoughts have taken their toll
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul
Your faith walks on broken glass
And the hangover doesn't pass
Nothing's ever built to last
You're in ruins

Did you try to live on your own
When you burned down the house and home?
Did you stand too close to the fire?
Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone
When it's time to live and let die
And you can't get another try
Something inside this heart has died
You're in ruins

Edited by BudokMilo
Courtesy of GreenDay