Too many minds....

I'm sad...I'm disappointed...

There are just too many things about you that more than meet the eye...

I'm hurt...

I'm damn freaking hurt...

I have do all I can... I have gv my best... but my best never seem enough to you isn't it? :(

Note to Thou....

Dear supreme,

Being if u there...
I have lot's of question that need Thou answer...

There are so many things in life that u have shown me...
Gift that u have given me...

It's too much for me to handle it...
I'm in pain seeing other in pain...

why did u show me so many things...
why u show me the how others live...

I just wan to know bout mine...
only mine...

yet images of other frames by frames I see...
can it be taken away?

I do not wish to know any thing anymore bout Thou creation...
I just hope I could do what I'm doing now... here...

thank you for the opportunity... I choose to be here...
small as I may be... but I change life....
and I need ur guidance.. not gift... not mercy...

Evocation

UNESCO, Madrid, Spain...
Here... where I'm now...

possibilities... responsibilities... contribution... evocation...

why?

why aren't I able to forget the forbidden rose....

Another day that I though everything is okay...

Harapkan pagar pagar makan padi...
Harapkan Matahari hujan jatuh ke bumi...
budi dibalas budi...
jasa di per sia..

helang mencengkam anak haruan...
dibuang isi di makan hati...

terang seterang bulan...
ada hari mengelap jua....


apakaha erti kehidupan ini...
tanpa cinta yang indah sejati...
apakah erti cinta sejati...
jika tiada tuan hamba di sini...

Where I was meant to be..

I'm here.. this me... there no where else on earth I rather be...
may be people say... this is not what I want...

Is not love that get me where I am now...
Is where I'm now that show me love...

to love and to be love is not an option... but is a privilege...
to kiss and to hold is not an action... but is a reaction of love...

this are the moment I thank God that I'm alive...
this are the moment I've been waiting for all my life...

I have all I've wanting for... and I could not ask for more...

u and I, we have different though... we have been broken...
lets follow our heart... and repair what we can...

Broken...

broken hearted...
vindicated...
devastated...
spellbounded..

speechless of what's going on...
but i will be strong to walk it through...
I hope love will always be with me...