break out and break through....

I know I'm different...
yet no so extraordinary...
I wish I could learn...
to control the imagery...
that stuck in my membrane....

things i see may not happen... yet...
just hope that it never will... yet...
some have come true...
some not... I just hate the goose bump when it does....

from now on.. any thing I see it's between me and my brain...
it happen there and it stay there...
who am I to see how people live...
it's their life...
please brain stop this madness...
it's killing me... partially...
slowly and softly....

Lock-on-stratos

I wonder...

I was wondering when I can get my pilot license....
argh.... cepat la process...
aku tok sabar nak terbang nie....

DON'T WANNA BE JUST LIKE U!

It's a new day, but it all feels old
It's a good life, that's what I'm told
But everything, it all just feels the same

At my high school, it felt more to me
Like a jail cell, a penitentiary
My time spent there, it only made me see

That I don't ever wanna be like you
I don't wanna do the things you do
I'm never gonna hear the words you say
and I don't ever wanna, I don't ever wanna be....
YOU...
I DON'T WANNA BE JUST LIKE U...

Go to college, a university,
get a real job, that's what they said to me
But I could never live the way they want
I'm gonna get by,
and just do my time,
out of step while, they all get in line
I'm just a minor threat so pay no mind

Do you really wanna be like them,
do you really wanna be another trend?
Do you wanna be part of that crowd?
'cause I don't ever wanna, I don't ever wanna be.....
YOU...
I DON'T WANNA BE JUST LIKE U...

I could really use a wish right now...

I could use a dream or a genie or a wish...
To go back to a place much simpler than this...
Cause after all the partyin' and smashin' and crashin'...
And all the glitz and the glam and the fashion...
And all the pandemonium and all the madness...
There comes a time where you fade to the blackness...
And when you're staring at that phone in your lap...
And you hoping but them people never call you back...
But that's just how the story unfolds...
You get another hand soon after you fold...
And when your plans unravel...
And they sayin' what would you wish for...
If you had one chance...
So airplane airplane sorry I'm late...
I'm on my way so don't close that gate...
If I don't make that then I'll switch my flight...
And I'll be right back at it by the end of the night...

Troublesome....

Again today was summon by the higher authority that govern the place I work...
same ol' thing... Some times I feel like a numb buts when I declined their offer...
what is life any way...
yes I understand the need to be happy and work for what I wan...
till the end of days...my life end either way...
there are no definite answer I see...
some time it is okay to be questioning...sometimes it is not...

need to lift up this head and smile...

Be... do... have....

Disappointment

The other day I was so hurt to hear and see the attitude of our teacher now days...
The teacher was assign with a task... it happen that the plan doesn't as planned....
So she was up sad...
For that part i understand em...

but it's the word the teacher utter in from of other colleague that make me so sad....
the teacher say "low budget, than give low quality of product lo...."
knowing that there are no funding and is our boss who come out with his personal money and this teacher say this?
I mean ya, keep it to yourself la.... but no...
the teacher utter it in front of other teachers which clouded other with same disappointment....
as a teacher... it is out job to inspire others...
well at this point the teacher is demoralizing others...

and i magin if this happen in the teacher class...
for example the teacher had prepare so many work sheets...
day and nite preparing it and suddenly the student say:"teacher you are jut wasting out time with your work sheet!!"
how will that teacher feel?

Well as nature recalled.... what goes around come around... the teacher do it to the boss.... and the student do it back to the teacher...

anyway...teaching is a nobel profession....
you inspire... you love... you care... and u guide others....
most of all you share.....