I've lost my touch

Yesterday, after coming home from wesak prayer. I try on to play some piece I once play... it turn out terrible... argh... no time to practice... have I been given to much of my time to the school? I wonder... I try on my photoshop... it doesn't turn out well either... gosh have I lost my "sand of times"...

I'm not giving up on things I love easily...

I'm resting this few day and practice the my music and digital drawing... man think about it I'm a digital artist..... :)

Hm.. well let's put togather what I like...

I'm a peace lover who enjoy green on earth and like children which allow me to express myself in digital forms.....

:)

A nerd who love a girl....

I’m a nerd...
who don’t know how to flirt...
cover with dirt....
to times I feel hurt...

lover are like love birds...
singing, tweeting and squeak...
even thou at time the tune need some tweak...
yet we’re all still fall in and fall sick....

my oh my...
I really can’t hide....
the feeling inside....
will never subside....

some of us fly...
to the deepest sky...
some of us cry....
through the lullaby....

love is not love if there are no giver...
even there are lot’s of receiver...
love is not love if is not to be shared....
even thou some times life seems to be unfair.....

when I shad a tears...
you wipe it dry...
when I was confuse...
you clear my mind...

when I sold my soul...
u bought it back for me...
you cheer me up...
and give me dignity....

so why was I blind all this while...
is because I’m a nerd all this while...

;p

cheers and “HAVE A NICE DAY”!!!! (>.^)

Chance...

My hand shivering when it touches yours...
My heart beat twice as fact when I hold you near...
As my finger roam across the hair of your...
It's like a fairy tale pledge to appear...

I'm the ogre I'm the beast...
You are the beauty and the princess in it...

Trying to fit in I'm indeed...
But I know you accept me as it is...

If I lay here...
If I just lay here...
Would you lie with me....
And just forget the world?

I don't quite know...
How to say how I feel....

Those three words...
Are said too much....
They're not enough....

shall we let ourself being wrapped in the warmness of tonight moonlight....

It won't be long till happiness steps up to greet me

Raindrops are falling on my head...
and just like the guy who's feet are too big for his bed,
nothing seems to fit...
those,
raindrops are falling on my head,they keep falling

so I just did me some talking to the sun,
and I said I didn't like the way he got things done,
sleeping on the job
those,
raindrops are falling on my head they keep falling

But there's one thing, I know
the blues they sent to greet me won't defeat me.
It won't be long 'till happiness steps up to greet me

Raindrops keep falling on my head
but that doesn't mean my eyes will soon be turning red.
Crying's not for me, cause
I'm never gonna stop the rain by complaining
because I'm free
nothing's worrying me

It won't be long till happiness steps up to greet me

Raindrops keep falling on my head
but that doesn't mean my eyes will soon be turning red
crying 's not for me
Cause I'm never gonna stop the rain by complaining
because I'm free
Nothing's worrying me

Please, accept my vehement protestation of apologies

Million mile away... different land and different bays...
Yet I end up in this mud and clay...

I use to be drunk... I use to fell and flunk...
Always think that every things is junk....

Mistake I make... pretend and fake...
Never knew that now everyones hearts break...

How do I tell you I'm sorry, With a gesture, look or touch...
How is it I never realized, I hurt you so very much...

I do not ask forgiveness, A comfort I'll never deserve...
I merely want to let you know, But I cannot find the nerve...

You called me selfish, I turned away, I festered and I fled...
Cutting and wounding and lashing out, Just to see if you bled...

Betraying and deceiving you, I surely had no right...
To snatch away such a precious gem like dark thief in the night.

month have passed to bring us to this day,
When I present these simple words I never thought to say...

The time has come, it's long past due, to put aside my fear...
Would this confession torture you, or have you longed to hear...

To hear those two forbidden words to vanquish all the pain...
To understand my dearest wish, to know you once again...

With my, 1 Heart... 2 eyes... 5 litre blood... 206 bones...
1.2million Red Cells... 60 trillion D.N.A.'s...

Please, accept my vehement protestation of apologies...

Should I explain?

Today was a tiring day... was quite buzz of at certain things... hm...

1 news which bother me... "L" today told me that "CS" is not happy with me coz I told "K" bout what she wrote in the blog about "K"... Well I already know that this is coming, knowing "K". (no wonder "CS" just keep away further and further from me :( )

My first expression to "L" was "She deserve it!!"... but deep in my heart "crap what have I done...". Hm... conflict flow through me...

should I explain or shouldn't I...

Well that day, my intention of showing it to "K" was to let him know what wrong he have done. I told "K", "Bro, you did this to me so many times, now it is obvious that is not just me who feel it.... u keep on promising but u never deliver..."

Later in noon time, "K" asked me... can I call "CS" to talk to her about the blog... well I say go ahead as long as u are happy with it... "K" called "CS" about the blog... well what ever happen during their conversation I have no idea.. knowing "K" haiz... nvm...

Well people may think what they wan or how they wanted... but I always remember this "if u can't love then hate, if you can't have then love, if you can't hate or love some one then back off...."

In the end, "K" is still my friend... "CS" still the one I love... if both of them detest me so be it... I never love them less... (my be some time my action and and words might hurt some one...)

Well I have decided I no need to explain this to any one... so I just leave it as my soliloquy...

Dear "M", really hope u are here now... i never mean to hurt anyone... but in the end I'm just cursing my own soul.....

It started with "M" and end with "N"

I didn't even realise it had been 7 years...
I thought is was just yesterday...
Coz you were so far away...

I'm trying to get someone to accept me....
But I was rejected....
I really don't know you were there all along....

It was 4/4/2010...
And u told me "4" is your lucky one...
I'm all u ever wanted...

I realise... I wanted to be with you too...
Why was I blind all this while...
Drenched in my own fantasies...

You are like an angel...
You guided this dark soul in me...
To belief in the love I once does...

Shall we bath in the blue night...
With the neon twilight as our companion...
till the morning ray wrapped us with warmness...

I shall keep you safe and sound in my arm...

What I learn from the movie Ip Man 2

"My victory, is never to prove who's stronger; regardless of who we are, we have the right to defend and protect our dignity....." Ip Man

"Kemenangan saya, bukanlah untuk menunjukkan siapa yang paling kuat; tidak kira apa pun status kita sebangai manusia, kita berhak mempertahankan maruah jati diri kita...." Ip Man

peace...
patient...
love for who we are...