私の世界

My World
When we were born we cry...
and the people around us laughing...
living mean suffering from feelings...

When we die we smile...
people around us cry...
transient is the end of worldly suffering....

Parent are the one who sires human being...
God, supreme being with it divine...
I, am a part of this world...
As equally important as other....

Where there's hate, it always causes by love...
Strive on with diligence.
Future is un-changeable, but what we do now might make a difference...

I'll always be the director of the movie called <<私の生命>>

そのような面倒の.....

张学友的《情书》

All Apologize...

I meet you, with a open heart...

I date you, with sincerity....

I warm you, with all my heart...

I know you, without regret....

I smile when u hold my hand...

I cry when you gone...

I forgive, long before you left...

I love, with no expiry date...

you ask, "what can't we get together again?"

I say, "we can still be friend.... forever and ever......"

(>_^)

Am I 25 minutes to late?

After some time you finally make up your mind...

Am I the one you wanna live with till the end of time?

I searching everywhere to find the truth again...

To accept the words from her...

And I worry about the future out come...

I find her calling to meet me in the Curve...

The only person on earth which I used to love...

She sound so happy, but I feel unrest...

But she crying when I'm saying this....

Girl I miss your kisses all the time but this is

25 month too late

Girl my heart all scar and I'm sorry you are

25 month too late

Against the wind, we can be friend again

Leaving it back all the moment we were more then friends

Still she called me to meet up in Curve...

The only place she wanna break up all curse...

She sound so creepy, and I feel depress...

But she crying when I'm saying this....

Girl I miss your kisses all the time but this is

25 month too late

Girl my heart all scar and I'm sorry you are

25 month too late

Out in the street

Places where hungry heart gets nothing to eat

I love her still

And tell her the words I used to say....

Girl I miss your kisses all the time but this is

25 month too late

Girl my heart all scar and I'm sorry you are

25 month too late

Engraving of the Prophecy

lies... terror... darkness... the upper world secret in the under world realm.....

She called....

She called...

I fall...

Fallen to the grave I once dig...

Lost to my own fate...

why? why?

Confuse in my mind...

Grab my camera run to 1U...

Take some shots....

Clear my mind...

Drink some heavy coffee from starbuck...

I'm out off luck...

people come and go...

I saw lovers so...

prefer being alone??

Dehydrated... Overheated...

Yesterday was my parent last day here in KL. I still have a lil hangover from K the night before. Early in the morning we went to have some Sea Park "Dim Sum" after that we went to Putra Jaya as it had been my father dream to see the city. Later my sis and cousin went to UKM to return her Convocation robe...me and my dad went pusing pusing around Shah Alam before ran-de-vous @ Sri Paandi curry house.

Later mom and sis went to Sunway for shopping that is when thing gone wrong with me...I feel dizzy... can walk straight... but I control myself so that my parent didn't get worry... lucky my da decided to went home and rest... so I bring my dad home...

It all happend... my temperature rising... can't see straight.... my ear can't hear anything.. feel like vomiting... my head full of confusion...so i decided to sleep....

In the late after noon I feel thirsty so on my way to the kitchen...I felt down... every one shocked (according to my sis, for the record this was my 4th times fainted... =.=).... lucky my there are few adults at home who can help me... I dunno who brought me the the clinic the next thing i know I was there.... my mum was very worry..lucky i have a "Jedi" sister who could use her persuasive skill to calm my mother down and send her to KL Central. According to my sis, I pass out for about 45 minutes... doctor say I was dehydrated and suffering from tiredness... I just don't get what he mean.... but as usual I hate doctors...unless they are lady doctors (>.^)...

And today, I still dun feel any of the symptom decreasing... my head is still in paint... I can't sleep... well last nite really shock those who are close to me... specially Jason and Kak Nora... they worry sick...keep calling my family but according to them no one pick up the phones... my sis really did it...send out messages that make every one worry bout me... but can't blame her...hell know what happend to me last night....

Darn why does this have to happen to me in the moment like this...my mom worry sick... man I'm and grown man with the brain of a kid.... haiz.....

My "K" list

Tonight is my sis last day here in KL with my parent so we bring her to "K" coz she is crazy bout "K" just like her brother... we teamed up quite well with the duet (^.^)...but she sang chinese song...as for me I'm suck at it.... Below are my pick list....

It started with:

Welcome to My Life - Simple Plan

Middle:

Welcome to Where Ever You Are - BonJovi

The Greatest Love -Whitney Houston

Terlalu Istimewa - Adibah Noor

Wake me up When September End - Green Day

Here Without You - 3 Doors Down

Arms Wide Open - Creed

Di Ambang Dilema - Nora

Suratan Takdir - Gersang

Numb - LKP

Irony - Alanis Morrisatte

至少还有你 - Sandy Lam

ended with:

So much for my happy endings - Avril Lavine

I was half awake when I sang Sandy Lam song, my sis say she saw tear flowing in my eye (may be just too tired...=P)...hahahha....

Partners?

I was asked too many times... Why are you still alone? I really have no idea why? It was two years ago when an event happened. It was out of a sudden, I was unprepared. was practicing a song. I receive a phone call and that's it... it's all end... being calling her... step in front of her house in the rain... but it was over... she had another guy in her mind... I was just another unlucky guy... but as time goes I forgive... we become friend... hm... life... she getting married soon... what a world... (^.^)... yet me... flying solo... been wrocking and wrolling... but my band split... some addicted... some committed to their partners... living me with a dreams and memories...

Partners? I have a mix feelings when it come to this. Scared... that the same thing will happened, I mean, I 'm not a prince charming.... just a croc (not frog ;p)...shrek kinda person... Confuse... is it love or some thing else.... argh.... please send an angel to guide me through this darkness....

Dilemma

Lately I been thinking a lot... about future... about the lesson I learn from the past... I some how realise that I've become a person whom I though I couldn't become... a teacher. I never though that one day I would touch some kids heart so deeply...I received a call today from parent asking me "My kid love your class so much, why aren't u teach them any more?" "They will be vey disappointed if u are not teaching them." I never get the chance to explain the parent straight away say "if the management give lots of other work we will help u talk to them."... I mean OMG I can't believe that this parent are so serious in this matter. Well in the ends, I manage to inform them the situation and they are okay with it... haiz my life...fiuh! Yet another parent. (^.^)

But recently I some how feel the emerging of my other long lost self. The Wrocking and Wrolling side. But I guess sometime it is hard for me to compose coz I realise I have a hearing disorder. I'm not sure of the effect to me in the future... sometime I can hear the stingy sound pierce into my ear... and make me feel a lil dizzy... hm... life... I hope every thing ok... hahaha coz the docter sez so... (>.^)

C'est ma parent, they are here, my whole journey from KL to Melaka... my gosh I have 2 lady and a woman nagging about me through the whole trip.... aiyai yai... my dad, he is as cold as ice...hahaha but when he crack his joke...I need to stop at the road site just to laugh at his joke... this...is my family... My brother not here...pity him... still in TAR... he got exam tomorrow (padan muke >.^)

Hm... been working on a song as I say earlier...

Title: My World 界

upon this time,

A heart will shine,

the glory of life,

which had been your and mine...

we live this life...

and held it high...

the memory of love...

shell never subside...

I can't believe it had come through..

Now I can see it because of you..

this life........

Chorus:

Tell me that is true...

every thing i do...

that we can see this things come together...

the pain that we go through...

what i can see in you...

i believe that every one had gone... it through....oh~

the world that we live in....

is a perfect world...

verse:

the people that I've seen..

they could be mean...

but at time of trouble..

we are all in the scene...

fight it together...

be here forever...

kid shall not suffer...

as long as we are here...

chorus:

<--argh still working on this part...-->

I dunno y i do it but it is fun... some of my old song become a folklore song in sabah... at least I'm much appreciated there with my work of art..Hm...well wat ever it is...It's my life...and it's now or never ...I just can't leave forever....I just wann live while I'm alive... \\(^0^)//...woo hoo~

Bayu Salju

Tuipan angin membelai jiwa...

Hatiku sepi tak tertawa...

Penantian in penuh sengsara...

Jiwa resah takut kecewa...

Anak kecik berlari-lari...

Hatinya riang bagai mentari...

pudarnya hati dewasa kini...

risau di minda resah di hati...

Ramai datang semuanya pergi..

mencari erti kehidupan ini...

sudah penat aku mencari...

tidak kau muncul di dunia ini...

sudahlah jiwa penuh haloba...

tidakku faham hati yang seksa...

aku terus mencari makna...

erti hidup bersama-sama...

1 Malaysia...1 Heart... 1 Love....

SITUASI

by: Bunkface

Diskriminasi menjatuhkan aku
Reputasi kini menjadi bisu
Dan aku, ku layu
Disitu

Mengharapkan sesuatu yang baru
Itulah impian aku

C/O
Dan bila kau menghilang
Musnah la, musnah impian
Tuk menggapai bintang
Terangi hidup ku
Ku mahu kau tahu
Engkaulah, destinasiku
Dalam ingatanku... oh oh oh...

Kerana diri ini tak daya lagi
Menempuh hidup yang ku temui
Dan aku, ku tunggu... oh oh oh
Disitu

Mengharapkan sesuatu yang baru
Itulah impian aku...

Proud to be Malaysian?

Sebenarnya, I'm proud to be APIITianz...
Jiwa in girang sekali melihat telatah anak anak didik melakukan yang terbaik dalam segala bidang di ceburi mereka.
Saya teringat kembali pesanan arwah datuk saya yang pernah bertanyakan saya apakahh bezanya seorang PENDIDIK and PENGAJAR.....

Pada mulanya saya ingatkan dua perkataan itu sama, tetapi pada hakikatnya ia berbeza. Kebuntuan menyelubungi kefahaman saya tentang PENDIDIKAN dan PENGAJARAN. Usia ditelan masa, akhirnya maksud kedua-dua ku fahami.

MENGAJAR

MENDIDIK


persoalannya sekarang...adakah anda seorang pendidik atau seorang pengajar??

Patient... even if it's painful...

Tormented apart by my heart and soul...

"Damn it" is a curse never told...

As painful as it may be...

yet I'm still free...

Free from the clutches of jealousy fang...

Free from the bite of greedy jaw...

chagriner du rythme de jalousie...

écraser par la voix de trahison...

mon coeur est vide et je ne peux pas expliquer...

J'ai été parti l'âme seul solitaire mieux...

Je me sens triste...

Mais je suis toujours patient...

Pour être un bon pêcheur à la ligne...

il faut être patient....

Man from Mars, woman from venus...and I'm lost in space

The spaces between, is empty and dark...

I can see a thing, all i trust is my heart...

feeling show, feeling comes, feeling go...

I'm left out along...

sometimes I wonder what I've done wrong...

sometimes I ponder why nothing went right...

it's all is my sacrifice...

my tears, my cries....

should I believe in it again...

should I let it infested me again...

I'm gone...

Lost in the battle of feeling...

drown in the river of thought...

I dream as i awake...

I'm lost...

Shadowed by hatred...

curse by anger...

set me free...

nevertheless, I'm patient...

calmness lies within me....

Premonition...

Deep in the mist...

Where every thing freeze...

My heart is not at ease...

The love that I miss...

Was tarnish by grease...

It's all finish...

The start was bright...

Each soul never fight...

It was love at first sight...

Nothing to hide...

No tears nor cries...

Butterflies spread the spore...

Seeds growing tall...

They was the lark of them all...

Premonition fall...

Every things gone...

Sleepless night...

Dangerous flight...

nothing seems bright...

Blogging a way to release stress!

I'm not sure how many people know that blogging can release the tension you have in your brain. Some people can express it verbally to other. But for some like me, I am more prone to express my stress i writing, even there are not much to it in sense on grammatical and verbalization. In the end it doesn't even matter because it's our space to express it. Well to all the loner out there, you are not alone. I am here with you. Thou we are apart you are still in my heart.

BudokMilo Signing out...

Soul Eaters

Life...

There are ups and there are downs...

Some make it a joke and live like a clown...

It's the choice that they made before we are buried underground...

Tension filling in when satisfaction are pouring out...

My heart is full and I'm screaming out...

(to be continue....)

The heart and soul of an Educator...

I never thought that one day I would be a teacher...

I never thought my pupils will ever call me teacher...

Educating them, guiding them, having fun and loving them...

Be the person they needed the most...

Let them feel love and close...

Sometimes the responsibility feel like more then just a teacher...

We are like parents...

a shoulder to cry on...

a person to rely on...

Facing children is more challenging then facing a hi-tech machines...

I may be good in Engineering the machines...

but engineering a child to become a person take more then maths and sciences...

we need all the available element to engineer our kids to be a great person that they're destiny to be....

Well I guess, it's about time...

To decide...

The soul of an educator....

My latest master 'pieces'....

Let it Go...

The feeling inside is really hard to subside,

it always troubles me and disturb my mind,

the emotions fail me each and every time,

saying "I'm not thinking of you" is a lie...

Time pass, we grow,

your path, mine flow,

Like a piece of broken arrow,

moving in hollow....

The memories still lies within,

I can't delete it like in the screen,

troublesome it may be,

love you still, I must admit...

lesson learnt, I CHOOSE not to forget you,

As painful as it may be, you are still part of my life,

Let it go??

not the feelings....

Let you go??

yes, you have every right to pursuit your happiness...

p/s

(>_^) beside a buaya can survive any terrain.....

My Journey end of July 2009

How to start this. This week it is really an exciting week for me. Lots of challenges, lots of obstacles. Patient is what my late grandfather used to say. But... being me, patient is not some thing I can't really work so well with. I'm impatient, reckless, and sometime could be very forgetful. As I'm doing my best to be as patient and un-reckless as possible, there will alway be a devil in me.

Saturday, it was a great memory for me because for 15 years, finally I meet up some of my long lost friends, crush (it's a secret) and we had a good time together. It seems that every one now has their own commitments and life to carries on, which remind me, what's mine? Being stuck with too many works lately, I kind of lost the sense of time and excitement that I used to have, jamming every night, hanging out with friend in the mamak's stall every evening, movie every wednesday night and most of all enough time to rest. I'm so out of it right now.

Sunday, went to the office for a while (As usual me a workaholic). Later on in the afternoon, I went out with a colleague mine for a movie. We had a great start, I mean we went for a walk around the Curve strolling later when it's time for movie I was like OMG! I lost the movie ticket. I'm so panic at that time I dunno what to think and ask my friend to wait at the cinema and I go back to the place we went to retrieve the ticket. But she insisted. Oh well. she follow me to the cafe we had our lunch. The tickets was lost. Later what I did, we went to the ticket counter again and explain about tickets and this was my first time ever went into the cinema ticket-less. (^0^)... creepy... but it happend because of mine recklessness. Man I hate being me at that time...